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Goals for 603 B

I decided to start over with my goals. By simply “revising” what I already have down, it makes it easier for me to really escape the self-reflection and thought needed to revise the goals wisely.

TIME MANAGEMENT: I don’t read my assignments on time. I’m slacking off. I waste my time on the internet, or just piddling around. This must stop. This goal CAN be attainable. It is well within my powers. All I have to do is make my schedule and stick to it. Noël: Read on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Simple, right? For some reason it is not. My free time on these days is consumed by leisure—naps are always great for catching up on my lack of sleep, but what was I doing when I stayed up so late? Was I reading? Completing assignments? No! I was hanging out with friends or reading the latest celebrity gossip. I am the first to admit that the time I waste is utterly ridiculous, and I need to overcome peer pressure and become a studious college student. And by becoming studious, I will complete my readings, assignments, and obligations on time. By completing all these in a timely matter, I will be less stressed out, and in the end, have more time for leisure. It seems very appealing, and yet I still struggle with this.

NURTURE MY CREATIVITY: Over the break I had a marvelous amount of time to sew and draw, and take part any all the other artistic endeavors I like to meddle in. For the first two weeks of school I’ve been quite depressed. I have had no time, and hardly any space, to create. I was bursting with energy, and wanted nothing more than to let it out. The oppressive nature of the dorm and living on campus in general made it seem impossible to accomplish what I wanted, but I know that with a little extra effort, and with the time management, I can nurture my creativity. In fact, I am well on my way to achieving this goal. I auditioned for a play this week and plan on filming a short film this weekend. The only point that worries me is that I may end up spending TOO much time fostering my creativity and will neglect my other scholarly duties. However, in a way, I see a more positive trade-off in the end.

A GENERAL LEADERSHIP GOAL: In high school, I was one of those kids that naturally “lead.” I was always making the first move and encouraging others to do the same. Some people looked up to me, and I was fully aware of this. I fell into a sort of comfort zone where I knew I would be looked up to, and so when I came to college I didn’t think I really needed to make a huge effort as far as leadership. Of course, I could do so much more. I have been content so far in the year to follow. I never thought I would ever be admitting to something like that, but it’s true. Without going into details, I will avow to take control of my situations more.

IMMERSE MYSELF IN KNOWLEDGE: This semester seems exponentially more promising than lasts. All of my classes are very interesting to me and at the same time, they all demand a greater amount of dedication and participation on my part. Instead of simply doing what is needed, I really plan to go beyond that. I don’t want to go beyond to please anybody; I would like to do that mainly for the purposes of my college education, and my education in general. Of course it always helps to be interested in what you’re learning about, and since I am, I will apply myself fully.

APPLY MYSELF SOCIALLY: I am working on this. I have made several attempts to mingle among my peers. I have a hard time relating to many people, and not because I’m awkward or anything, it’s just a lot of people I have met don’t seem to interest me. As harsh and frank as that sounds, I feel that much of that may be