Ch 54:
“Grogans solemn warning: that the rest of his life must be lived in proof of the justice of what he had done”
“infinitely alone, exiled, yet fused in that loneliness, inseparable in that exile”
CH. 55
narrator on charles “what the devil am I going to do with you?”
on writing, p. 406, it’s a “fixed fight”
-there are going to be two endings
Ch 56
Marriage is a legal proceeding in this chapter
“he means you to remain a bachelor all your life”
“I am marked and defiled to the end of my life”
ch. 57
ch. 58
charles has a “total purposelessness”
“an intolerable lethargy and melancholia”
“Paleontology … no longer interested him”
“he no longer much believed in that freedom” –the shared exile
“love had left the world”
“his greatest enemy was boredom; and it was boredom, … that finally drove him home”
“Then go to America, and drown your sorrows in the bossom of some Pocahontas”
Ch. 59
“two things pleased him best—the delicious newness of the nature … The other pleasure lay in the Americans themselves”
in America: “he was no longer bored”
“what the experience of America … had given him –or given him back—was a kind of faith in freedom”
Ch 60
Ruskin: “he wrote of an inconsistency of conception. He meant that the natural had been adulerated by the artificial.”
Sarah: “I had always thought that I hated it. I now live in a world where loneliness is most easy to avoid. And I have found that I treasuer it. I do not want to share my life. I wish to be what I am.”
“I find myself happy where I am situated now”
after this:
“deep inside his admiration for the heretic grew. She was like no other”
sarah: “I believe my happiness depends on my not understanding”
this is denial?
“he saw deeper still: her supposed present happiness was another lie”
CH 61
“it was as if she were trying to tell him something she could not say in words”
“from the first she had manipulated him. She would do so to the end”
“life … is not a symbol … but is to be … endured”