I too have a weak mind and find it hard to concentrate on just one thing, on just inner peace. But you really are getting there. I know that you got the chance to go back to the garden with out worldly distractions (plus without having to write what you feel) you could become to relaxed with who you are. The garden really does something to all of us. We all thought of the world in a different way when we were there. It's just a nice place to be.